Wednesday, August 4, 2010

This was all such a mistake and now we're stuck

Sean is NOT doing well at school. Not at all. I've gotten numerous emails and now I have to meet with his teacher and counselor. I'm terrified they are going to move him to a special class due to his emotional issues. Everything was working at his old school so I'm heartbroken we moved him. It wasn't necessary since Mike had a job and was making plenty of money--he was just gone most of the time but at least we were somewhere where things worked.

We changed Sean's meds before we moved and thought that was the problem but now he's back on an old medicine and he still got out of control. I'm worried about that. I'm worried about his sadness, his desire not to do homework and how the other kids perceive him. I don't know how to deal with it and to be honest I don't want to. I just want to go home where things worked.

I'm sure it's not helping that I don't want to not live in Texas. I know that makes no sense but I think I would deal with it better if we were still in my home state. I'm so sad and I don't know if it's affecting the boys or not. They are both unhappy. Connor asks daily when we can go home to San Antonio. He doesn't want to do fun things, go to his school in the fall, or even go to camp at the gym. He just wants to stay home then ask me about going back to SA. I thought this was God's plan when our house sold so easily but now I just don't know. I hate to see Sean suffer and since I'm miserable myself it just makes it so much worse.